Thursday, July 13, 2006

Weathering the Storm

It has been raining heavily for two days. Kids don't have classes because floods are everywhere. Manila without flood, is no Manila after all!

The days have been gloomy. The sky has been gray to black. Wet, muddy and lonely are the streets. Heavy traffic, grrrr. FLOOD, yeah flood! Brownouts too! There was nothing to do but open the tube and watch the same old telenovelas er, telefantasias.

The cold wind shudders me. News were all about floods, landslides and a volcano about to erupt. Traffic was super heavy, the line for commuters was almost a mile (yeah that’s exag), plus some ingrate taxi drivers kept on refusing (pretty and sexy) passengers, hehe! It was really hard walking with one hand holding an umbrella and the other carrying a bag of groceries (I bought some for emergencies) plus a bag on the shoulder.

The weather made me remember the good old days when I was with a special person. Rain was never a bad thing, it was a blessing and we were very happy when rain comes. We’d hold hands, walk under a single umbrella not hoping the rain to stop! We seriously enjoy the blissful moments that random raindrops fall on our faces. But he is no longer around now and those happy times were just a thing of the past. The rain somehow brings pain – pain knowing I may not be able to be happy like I was at that time.

Why am I bothered of all these? Why should I allow myself to feel miserable If I can be truly happy? If only I would concentrate on other things somehow I would actually see greater things of value.

Rain is not that bad after all. God allows these to happen to indeed shower us with blessings. He wants new trees to grow, new flowers to bloom, busy birds to rest in their nest and us to takes things slow. Rain may have brought waters to flood but it will all subside soon. I shall have to wait and look out for that awesome rainbow and that wonderful feeling of seeing one.

If not for the rain, we may have valued the sun less. We might end up disregarding the beauty of sunrise, the colors of sunset. We all have to go through serious problems and allow ourselves to feel it, to get through it. It will hurt us, cut us, torment us but we should never allow it to defeat us. Our Father allows us to go through serious pain to make us value joy in its entirety.

I miss the sun. I miss seeing the orange painted sky every sunset. I miss the birds, the butterflies and dragonflies flying freely on air. I miss walking briskly , freely not minding anything. I miss that extra energy the sun gives, rain makes me sleepy, lazy, idle.

I miss the sun. I know it still rises and sets the usual way but the dark clouds kept me from seeing it.


i am hoping i could sing this song with all honesty, somehow, someday soon...

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin’ for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

Look all around, there’s nothin’ but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin’ but blue skies.

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

verse of the day