blessed

my dear thea,
You're about to turn 2 years old Mommy will always remember the day you were born.

You are daddy's girl from the beginning because you waited long hours for dad to arrive from Brunei before you said its time to get out of my womb.

You are mommy and daddy's angel. There were no one but us in the room when the nurse brought you from the nursery. We were excited and scared you might wake up coz we dont know how to carry you. But you are an angel. You slept and even made a face, i think its a smile you make for your dad and me, it made both our hearts melt and brought great joy.

You are beautiful. You are loved. And most of all you are a blessing.

I will always look back at that day and see how blessed i am to have you. Know that mommy will always be proud of you. We love you Thea, we always will.

love letters

Love letter is a lost art. What with the text and all the real time communication gadgets.
if there's anything nice about being apart - they are the random love letters i receive in my inbox.
Love it!

rant

Some people thinks i am 0A na, what with the 'firstborn' churva. Comments like my child is like this and that when she's 2yo is piling up with comments that they got better after a while. Friends i love u and i know u love me too but now i need u to consider that we are preventing something huge.
If she is well I am the happiest but if she isnt i dont want to regret that i havent done my part as i should. I wont be able to carry the guilt if i could have done something to change it.
You are tryng to help i bet i can feel it. So u can maybe say 'how can i help' or if u could push farther y not 'you're doing a good job' :) U can also help by giving me things i need to bridge the gap/delay. Books, educ toys or playmates for thea would be great. She needs peers her age cousins are older kasi.
So there i am not mad. I just have so much in my hands and some comments arent helping.
Hugs-mommy nyem

fyi

FYI i'm still alive! I just dont have time and my lappy is not with me - i so miss it and its hard to write with a fone when blogging imagine a sore thumb after a hundred word.
Nway, me and thea are here in Pinas indefinitely. She's diagnosed with global developmental delay at risk of ASD one of the causes myt be traveling to and fro brunei-manila. She's having a hard time daw sabi ng doctor kasi walang consistency. Plus walang Occupational therapist sa brunei to help me - that and several other consideration made me decide to stay here indefinitely.
The news was heartbreaking. Yes it is and beyond, i dont know exactly how to describe it. My mind couldnt function right as i have to accept everything that needs to be done. But i have to make myself strong because my girl needs me now more than anything. It is a serious task pm me if u want details, there are other things i cant bring myself to write.
So there, i dont have much time. I want cyber hugs from you and a lot of encouragement. I've been researching na din and the task is overwhelming. Yet i know i can do it, God wont gve this task to me if i cant d ba? So yes, with your help and lots of prayers everything will be okay. So help me God.

happy 3rd!

Mine is a life of love, blessing, laughter,inspiration and hope when He brought me to you.

Happy 3rd sweetheart! I love u