happy CHRISTMAS pictures =P

cheers for 2008! more blessings! more love to everyone! mwaah mwaaaah =)

adieu 2007

here's 07 end survey!

What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
school and work. Hirap day. Mamate ku! Hehe.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I did, most of it hehe! http://i-am-me-nyem.blogspot.com/2007_02_01_archive.html
Sa school I was able to get the scholarship. Great. Met new friends too, lovely and sweet new friends!!!
Office – was able to go to the 4-Saturday Finance training at UP Diliman. Man, I have always wanted to go to that school. Finally! Finally!
Church - went to Malis, mission point just this December. Well, at least I did what I nominated ayt?
Family – StarCity last Dec 22 made up for lack of gifts during their birthdays! Loads of fun!
Love – lots of it! And more to come!!!
More Love…More Laugh theme surely spells 2007! Adieu to double O7 =P I love you!

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nin - Natalie (inaanak ko pa)
Lanie – di ko alam ung name
Elsa - Ella
Ellen - Eram

Did anyone close to you die?
Amang Ben died 40 days before Christmas =(

What countries did you visit?
Hindi pa din ako nakaalis ng bansa ngayong taon =(
But I will definitely see Brunei and Malaysia this February! Ayiy! Hopefully, Australia too but going down under is still really something far fetched so lets go to Brunei and Malaysia first! Hehe! (halata ba excited!)

What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
A baby (joke lang!). More time with family, I guess. And lots & lots of time with duds!!!

What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Sobrang dami:
August 28 – a date to remember
August 31 - my birthday & statistics’ final exam =( and a date with batman! September 21 - date ulit @ diamond hotel, roxas boulevard. (hehe puro date ang ginawa ko ng last months of 07)
October 12 – a tight embrace and a sweet kiss! (pagbigyan nyo na lola nyo kung sobrang mushy)
December 24 and 25 – happiness in action!!! Days after I am still grinning!

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
scholarship for the first and second trimester in DLSU

What was your biggest failure?
financial economics 1 eeeew

Did you suffer illness or injury?
none, thank God, well other than the usual PMS which is the reason why I have to go to the acupuncturist this weekend!

What was the best thing you bought?
Randell!!! And I really really love him na! Huge help for my finals, school paper and presentation. Camera too, 6.1megapix!

Whose behavior merited celebration?
ate la, minette, udette & rhea. This girls never fail to brighten my day. They bring out the best in me and I will ever be grateful. Alabyu all. Mwaaaah.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Never mind! Someone made me delighted and happy anyway, and that’s more important! Mwaaah mwaaah.

Where did most of your money go?
Transpo, food & La residencia. Pleasures, burburry, clinique (all for kikay!)

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Was always excited when giraffe comes to see me! Hahaha! Btw, giraffe stuff has now been included in my collection list. I have this super cute giraffe paper weight, it bends. I also have a baby giraffe stuffed toy, a pasalubong from Brunei. I was eyeing at the big giraffe puppet at blue magic but I still don’t know where to put it. Oooops, blue whale is ok, but giraffe prints are much cooler. Don’t you think dad?

What song(s) will always remind you of 2007?
Ngiti, Ambisyoso, Way back into Love.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- happier
ii. thinner or fatter? – fatter 119 vs 115
iii. richer or poorer? – definitely RICHER! Hahahaha Positive energy! More love and basically more of every little good thing! =D

What do you wish you'd done more?
Missions. But I didn’t have the time. Saka laziness came in din =(

What do you wish you'd done less of?
TV, the Buzz and Star Talk trash

How many one-night stands?
None.

What was your favorite TV program?
Kakasa ka ba sa grade 5 and Wish Ko Lang

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is a very strong word. I don’t, btw.

What was the best book you read?
the only book I read this year was the finale of Harry Potter, ‘deathly hallows’ courtesy of Ruby, my boss.
I cant count the Gujarati’s Econometrics because wasn’t able to finish it and besides it s totally boring. Also bought Shortcut to Calculus, which I still have to finish. Haha nerd no?

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Charice Pempenco, got interviewed by Ellen de Generes. Sosyal di ba?

What did you want and get?
Scholarship! Thanks for the prayers. Mwaaah mwaaah. And even though I lost it because of Fin Eco at least office’s subsidy increased to 10k! yeyey!!!

What was your favorite film of this year?
Fantastic Four, Rise of the Silver Surfer, Harry Potter 4 & Rush Hour 3! Not much of the story but more of the company while watching these films.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Took my dreaded Statistics final exam and had a date with vhin at bubba gump greenbelt then at starbucks (libertad ba un)! Ayiy! I’m 28!

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I don’t know. I am really happy with the turnout of 2007 and I am looking forward to a far better 2008!

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
Shirt dresses pa din! More colors, more fun!
Korean shoes.
Milk and company addict! The only store who sells shirts that are super bagay sa kin!
Bangs and long tresses! Piandre =P sossy ng lola haha (pero mas sossy ang lolo!)
Syemps damp of Pleasures to make me simply irresistable. Wahaha.

What kept you sane?
Family, Church, Friends, School and Dad

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Paris Hilton, hehe joke!

What political issue stirred you the most?
election 2007! Pichay sa senado, hehe, buti di nanalo!

Who did you miss?
I miss vhin now =( he just flew back to Brunei this morning and we will have to wait for another 2 months till we will be able to see each other. But its ok, good things keep on coming!!! 12 years in the making!

Who was the best new person you met?
Him pa din. I think I was only able to meet him and known him personally at the second half of the year. Really happy.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
There is time for everything.
Time to embrace. Time to refrain from embracing.
Time to weep. Time to laugh. Time to love <3

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
I complete him. Ehehe. Very “Jerry Maguire”.
And that every single photograph of me is beautiful. I know its biased but I don’t care.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
Let the picture do the talking! All together now! Aaaaawwwwwww.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
Stronger. Funny. Confident. In love.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
ewan.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
525,600 minutes how do you measure, measure a year?
How about love?

Was 2007 a good year for you?
Definitely!

What was your favorite moment of the year?
Dec 24! Hehe biased ako no? Fresh pa kasi sa memory!

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
June 11 but it was the beginning of these happy and nice things so no regret!

Where were you when 2007 began?
Home. Poblacion, Calumpit, Bulacan! With Family. I included the address because next year I don’t really know where I’d celebrate it. Or where my new home be!

Who were you with?
Family. Parents, sibling and pamangkins

Where will you be when 2007 ends?
Same when it begun.

Who will you be with when 2007 ends?
Family pa din! “Mariano” hehehe.

Do you have a new years resolution for 2008?
Will make one pa lang.

What was your favorite month of 2007?
Volatile December. Its ups and downs are super unpredictable but it ended pretty great so December it is!!!

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2007?
ok lang

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
geng, well every year naman

What was your favorite record from 2007?
wala yata ako nabili. But apo hiking revival is great!

How many concerts did you see in 2007?
none =(

Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2007?
champagne, red wine and white wine here and there. Sips of it lang.

Do a lot of drugs in 2006?
dolfenal mainly, hehe, for PMS

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
none that I remember, and if there’s any I won’t tell u.

How much money did you spend in 2007?
not much. Hehe. Like last year I don’t have that much to spend. My payslip spells rent, transpo and la res.

What was your proudest moment of 2007?
When I got that SFA!

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2007?
When fin eco took it from me. Hehe.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2007 and change something, what would it be?
Final exam financial eco. I should have cheated like the rest of the class. Hehe. Joke lang.

What are your plans for 2008?
Travel during the first half, and lots of preparation during the 3rd quarter! Geeez!

How are you different now that the year has ended?
More happy, more secure, more hopeful.

What are your wishes for the new year?
That all of us may spend the rest of our lives with the one we want to spend it with. That we may able to enjoy every single minute of our days, 525,600 minutes. Hakuna Matata!
That we may find time to be thankful for all the blessing be it big or small.
More cheers and hope for 2008.
Mwaaah mwaaaah!

hectic december

december started with lots of rushes!

well, december is usually "hectic" due to lots of work in the office and church too. and with schooling this year, i could hardly manage to juggle all three.

work requires me to make several runs of financial projection that will meet the scrutiny of the board members. as in revision after revision. (walang kamatayang revision ito! kakaloka)

i was again elected auditor at church. and that means attending the planning for the whole year etc. (kakapagod din, pero manageable naman) if u knew the mess finance team has undergone this year u'd knew why the team's need to prepare for the coming year. glad that chaos is over. order is gradually coming =) Amen!

then to add to the already hectic schedule, school requirement came in. there was this 40-pager risk assessment report and presentation on PNB for risk management. i got leah and sha as team mates for this report. buti n lang these girls are great! i love them. we finished the report on the day before the deadline. hehe not exactly, we even had a prob on the day of presentation. when sha's laptop broke down and she has to make a presentation again. glad she was able to finish it in an hour!

and then there were these final exams for financial economics and risk mngt

with all these, we can't stop Christmas from approaching. and i'm glad at least after all this chaos, something wonderful is on its way. all else will seem insignificant. (not in its entirety though, but hey it will lessen the burden ayt?)

i am happy that God has given me lots of reason to be thankful for! He has been so great. and hopefully I'll be able to give thanks to the savior not only during this season but always.

Its the season of hope friends! A season of love! May all of us abound in hope and love this coming Christmas and all the days of the coming year.

Merry Christmas and Cheers to 2008!

gatbuca IRM planning 2008

here are some of our pics! enjoy!!!

and this one is my fave. i love my phone, it has this feature! great no?

Jologs

Fujiwhara effect:
in jologs term vocabulary eto ibig sabihin nyan:
Crush ni Bagyong Mina si bagyong Lando. Kaso si Lando tsumugi na ng Pinas nagtago na itech sa Taiwan. Dinaan ni Mina sa lakas at balik itech si Lando sa Pinas. Yan ang Fujiwhara effect. haaay ang tanda ko na pala... dati puro babae lang ang name ng bagyo eh, madalas pa nga ung may 'ing sa dulo.
Cge nga paramihan ng "ning" sa pangalan:
Alin sa sumusunod ang may pinakamaraming "ning" =>
Nening, Luningning, Trining (hahaha corny)
fujiwhara @ wiki

Manila was shaken by an earthquake. Hala, nagising kami lahat. ooops di pa pala ko tulog nun, inaantok p lang. Intensity 6 pala un. Hala. Sana wala namang nasaktan at walang bahay na nagiba.
earthquake in manila

now one of the beautiful faces in showbiz left aaaaay. Gusto ko pa naman si Cindy =(
cindy kurleto

excited na ko! pupunta kami dito sa december 22.
starcity

What are you thankful for?

Today would be Thanksgiving day in the US!

And while the Americans celebrate it on a Thursday, our church celebrates the annual Thanksgiving Service every last Sunday of November. We’ve only been celebrating the annual affair for 4 years but it’s quite fun. Everybody’s anticipating the event. Actually I am more excited with it than the church’s anniversary. I mean, its more like a community celebration, where everybody participates and everyone brings food (potluck galore) contrast to the Church Anniv which is more commercialized; Thanksgiving is very casual whereas Anniv is a formal event, just imagine the choir in their choir gown! Wala lang, I think Thanks giving is fun fun fun without staking the true meaning of the celebration. (Don’t get me wrong I do love celebrating Anniversaries but Thanksgiving services give more soul.)

Anyways, as the topic says, “What are you thankful for?” What transpired during the year that makes you more happy, more intelligent, more fruitful, more creative, more closer to God! (Post a comment if you can!)

On the other hand, “What am I really thankful for?” let me count the ways…

I thank God for my family! Kay Tatay, Nanay, Siblings Mai, Leng, La and their hubbies, Pamangkins – Gail, Simon, Mik, Kiel, Kean, Jed, April. They all make me super happy, they are my core, the ones that keep me going.

I am thankful for my work that brings food on my table and money for the rent!!!

Thank you Lord for the school that pays for my studies. Studying kept me sane through my worst times. It kept me busy and made me meet new lovely friends, I’d surely treasure for life. I thank God for Aera, Sha, Leah, Jan and the rest of my classmates. My horizon expanded and with that I thank thee Lord!

I am absolutely grateful to God for handing me with friends that are there when I needed them. I thank you Lord for Inets, Udet & Rhea. For Vhin who had understood and given me the time I needed for myself. They are the living reminder that God cares for me much more that I can imagine. With them I fully comprehend that God has plans for me and that His timing is perfect!

For the good health, wonderful places I’ve been, amazing people I’ve met, scary matters that I have hurdled and for those times that I am tired and You carried me Lord, thank you!!!

May each of us take some time to appreciate the things God has bestowed upon us.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!

Collosians 1:11-14

Puff the Magic Utot!!!

i hope i will succeed in uploading this. Kiel will kill me when he turns 7 and sees this. hehehe. love u kiel!

bonifacio high street is just meters away from office but i was only able to go there last friday november 16. and i wasnt even able to roam around but its ok, the only reason naman why i went there is for me to see this lovely 4-storey bookstore!!!

hay, sana i could bring home all the books i want! kaso medyo expensive sila kaya dun na lang ako magbabasa!hahaha, tipid pa.

katie holmes

if i were mrs.cruise i really have to work hard to keep up with my uber husband right? but this girl just rock! i love her and this pic is just one of her best pic ever!!!

chek out people.com too for other lovely pics =)

if i cut my hair this short babagay kaya sa kin? and if i do cut my hair may magagalit kaya? hahaha? ano sa tingin mo mark?

movies

aaaay...i really wanna watch a movie =( lalo pa wala na naman ako kasama sa boarding house =( and kahit na super dami ko pa kailangan aralin.

i am super moody mula pa kahapon so don't make anything that will irritate me because darn you'll be in big trouble (if you do so).

basta, i want to watch GamePlan and Lions for Lambs pero mas gusto ko ung GamePlan kasi si the Rock un, funny huge man =D besides its from disney... aaaaay

here's the site

wow the 50 peso videoke challenge

Yesterday I lost my voice over a 50-peso videoke challenge with my siblings, my brother in-law, my pamangkin 'mik' and tatay.

The goal of the game is to get the hightest score in Mikelle's wow magic sing microphone. It was tough because the outcome will be determined by the microphone's scoring criteria which is relatively unpredictable.

Yesterday we started singing at 11am and the last person left singing (around 4pm) was ate leng who came back to avenge her throne. hehehe.

At first i tried singing the experiment songs but when tension started rising i have to position myself and sang Crazy for You, the song I knew I could master with ease (lalakasan mo lang boses mo mataas na score!), with that I got 94!

Kuya Khyl then took the list and scan for a song he knew would give him a higher score, I forgot what he sang but we both tied up at 94.

Us siblings are all competitive with regard to our singing careers, hehehe. Well, except for ate mai (if you're family you'd know)! :)

Ate La cant join much coz her four kids need lots of attention, especially the eldest (his husband!). But when she came down and sang "IF" she got 96 which makes her top 1.

This time ate leng had to come down even though her super kulit son, Jed, was following her. She said she had to win and started singing. But only when she sang "my heart will go on" was she able to get 97. after which everybody stopped singing. She won.

PostScript: The day that followed I lost my voice. =)

here's tatay singing Hey Jude! But the most memorable song he sang was "Peggy Sue", with matching stomping of feet!

Unexpected things that happened

1. Last weeek Glorietta II had a blast which damaged the 2nd quad of the mall. It killed 11 innocent lives and injure more than a hundred more. How sad that up to now there is still no news about how it happened, why i happened or who is responsible for such a big blast. I hope the bereaved loved ones are alright and those injured are recovering fast.

2. ERAP got an executive clemency from President Arroyo. The one who had pursued his impeachment years back. Ironic? What does this mean to our poor Philippines? So where's justice? Does this mean, that if you're rich and have connections youre free to do all the things you want. The president will forgive you anyway. haaaay

3. And very unexpectedly, I have found my way back into love =), with my very owm lovieduds! hehehe. And masaya ko, hope you are too. =) =) =)

My Men

This entry is about the men I encountered (will encounter) this week:

Men number 1. “Men” here doesn’t mean the opposite of women, what I meant was my monthly menstruation which drives me crazy and makes my tummy unbelievably painful. Unbelievable, believe it! Haha, parang Dean Cain no? Believe it or not!

Two things to add on my “know about me” during this period:
My nose is humunoultramicroscopicstinkykilikiliconiosis. As in, sobra naaamoy ko kahit malayo. Hindi sa kin yun kasi immune na ko sa amoy ko hahaha. Even sweat annoys me. Grabe, ayaw ko ng malagkit eeeew.
Volatility is the term. Thought only stocks and foreign exchanges are volatile. Meet me during this period and you’ll know the meaning of volatility in motion. I cried while watching Hwang Jini. Mushy, wawawa.

Men number 2. Now “Men” refers to a men’s book called “How to heal a broken heart” by Nelson Dy. Ive finished reading it and came out a pretty good book for men and women alike. But, syemps, when it is intended for men it will be more appreciated by men.

Lessons learned from the book:
Accept the pain and heartbreak. And make it move you closer to God.
Let go. Let God turn the page.

Men number 3. In the blue corner is Jonas Marcelo (Atenean). In the green corner is Alvin Guce (Lasallian yata). These guys are my classmates and they were debating “in writing” via our financial economics yahoo groups about when to take our exam. Huwaaat? The other said “You were defending your argument with gusto” the other replied “I was not, better read the transcript” (not the exact words though, emphasis mine) How petty huh? But we did feel the tension in class last night when we were asked to decide upon the date. The neutral people, us, are like what will these two say? Apparently they did not say a thing. It’s a boy thing =P Mak, if they google their names can they find a link to this blog? Hope not. Ooooh, btw Pacquiao won over Barrera hehe. Not related but somehow I felt that was boxing in writing!

Man number 4. Tatay. Not that he ranks number 4 syempre lagi priority ang tatay ko no. However the intensity here is different. Last Sunday, while watching boxing he began telling his “you’re too noisy I cant appreciate what im watching” monologue. So ate la told him to just go upstairs and watch from there. He gave up and went upstairs. Minutes later he went down again telling my mom, watching from the bedroom was boring. He might as well watch it downstairs where the kiddos were. Huwaaat??? These are the things I don’t get yet love about this man.

Man number 5. (Again ranking here doesn’t equate to preference, ayt?) Someone’s coming over here from a 3-week hiatus to another country. He’ll probably be here for 4 days only but its pretty great to have him around than wait for Christmas and ask Santa to hand him to me, hehe. Anyway, this makes me extra happy! Ayiy!

Joyride to Marilao

Last night, the FX I rode broke down in the middle of NLEX. Huwat? As in patrol men are behind us to see if we were ok. Then they told the driver he better take the Marilao exit to avoid accidents. Turned out that the breaks are not working properly. Huwaat again? Hehe. Pero I was not really hype about the matter. Ewan, hindi lang siguro talaga ko selosa este nerbyosa pala.

The first time it broke down was right in the middle of the highway. (Actually, I did smell something burning but I chose not to say it, turned out it was a bad choice.) NLEX patrol asked manong if everything is alright. Well Manong said yes, in fear of being towed hehe. Manong is stressed, what can you expect? He became more when patrolmen now in cars started following us. After which the driver started driving slow, then slower then slooooower then uggggh we were at the corner already it stopped. We can smell smoke from under. Nyahaha.

Manong, full of pawis hehe, went under the car with his tools which cured it a bit and then he drove it in safe mode to Marilao. Promising us passengers that he will take us to another FX. The drive to Mac Arthur was super long, I thought it will take forever till we reached the nearest terminal (we were like running 1km/hour). But when it rains it pours, duh. There was no FX left to service us. Passengers, excluding me and my seatmate in the front seat, are now blaming Manong. Poor poor Manong. “Pano na kami makakarating nyan?” “Gabi na?” “Mahinang dumiskarte” etc etc.

Moi texted Ate La and Vhin to ask for prayers that we may be safe. But I didn’t know they cared for me that big until last night. I received 8 phone calls yata last night from them checking if I was all right! Ayiy! Sweet no?

Eto naman ang text ng ate ko nung sinabi ko na nasa Marilao na at walang ibang FX:

Hi nyem2! Take jeepney n lang daw from ther to kalookan. Baka abutin ka ng pagsikat ng araw jan, wla pa naman ikaw escort na gaya ni vinstalk.. Or kaya naman umpisahan mo ng tumakbo! Takbo bilis! Mauunahan mo pa yang pagong nyo!

Btw, we ended up in a van stationed at SM Marilao which took us to MRT. I got home/bh 10pm, which is still ok.

Well, thank you Lord for bringing us to safety and thank you to friends and family who make me feel special, say very special!!!

the value of forgiveness

Have you been treated badly?
Has someone made you cry you can't breathe properly?
Had your heart been broken, torned and crushed? (hehe over)

Had you sworn not to forgive someone? I hope not. Please consider the following verse:

"For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins (Matthew 6:14, 15, NIV).

True that some may have caused you great pain.
True that the graveness of their offense may have been ocean deep.
But who are we not to forgive?

Know that if the measurement of forgiveness is based on the gravity of the sin we've done, we may not be qualified to ask for forgiveness from our Heavenly Father.

Therefore friends, we ought to forgive.

perfect love casts out fear

1 John 4:18 (NASB)
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.

My biggest fears in life include the following:
v Losing our house =(
v Not knowing where to stay
v Failing my exams (MS FE)
v Cancer (this is too morbid, but both sides have it)
v Dying doing something I am not supposed to do
v That I might fail with another relationship
v That I might expect much and give to little
v Getting married (dati I was so sure that I do want to get married, siguro pressured pa din o dahil sa failure sa previous relationship indecisive pa din ako)
v Giving birth
v Knowing that I might not be able to conceive (this is more scary than the previous)
v Kissing the frog instead of the prince charming

But perfect love casts all fears. I just got to rely on His help to overcome my fears. His love is stronger than all there is in the world.

Haaay, Lord. “When all these troubles (and all else) come to mind, please remind me that You are in control.”

With that I remembered one of my previous posts:
http://i-am-me-nyem.blogspot.com/2006/10/are-you-worried.html

I like this game… It makes me think and understand life and my purpose more =)

Happiness is not measured on how much one has achieved. It is in knowing that you have a purpose in life that one can truly be happy!

Lastly, living involves taking risks. No risk no reward!

September 21, 2007

my rainbow!!!!

quotes and shout out

if u want 2 have what you've never had, then u must do wat you've never done. Coz if u only do what you've always been doing u will only have what you've always been having.

this one is from mak! bakit kaya? hmmmm...
tanungin ko si tin!!!

"Today's mighty oak is merely yesterday's little nut that mananged to hold its ground."

huwow.... from inets' shout out

"All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be the blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king."
---J.R.R. Tolkien

so what was that Kap? hehehe. medyo malalim pero ayos, aylab lotr!

"just when i thought i had all the answers, life changes the questions!"

galing kay ate vi! swak na swak. wahahahaha

We cannot do everything at once, but we can do something at once. - Calvin Coolidge"

from victor joel's shout out telling us we all got to MOVE

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.."

from vhin's shout out

life is too short to give up chocolates...

hehe, galing kay chie! ayos, especially white chocolates =P

Life is not a matter of getting married or staying single. Rather, Life is pleasing Christ whatever we do & leading the life the Lord has placed us in @ present w/ grateful heart & faithfulness"

marivi's shout out! great no?

you gotta love hard or hardly love at all

from d.carvajal's inquirer write up.
haaaay... guilty

rushes

ok so i don't have the time to write much. er, i did had the time to write but i was writing my term paper. i should have said i don't have the time to blog much. (oh my, i'm beginning to sound so nerd)

so here are the rushes:
(rushes are those i intended to write in details but failed due to time constraint.)

Scholarship!

Ayiy! I just want to thank all those who've helped me in my most stressful finals week. It was during my birthday btw that all of these requirements went due. So there i was rushing to finish my case study and term paper to meet the deadline and meet my professors' expectations, just so i could have the required 2.5 average for my scholarship.

And thank you, thank you, thank you Lord for granting me this gift. I had longed for a new rainbow but he gave me something new. God humors! God giveth and He giveth more than you could even expect.

Remember when I said I will postpone my birthday to Sept 7, He also postponed His birthday gifts. My scholarship and my trip to dumaguete, which is the next subject of my rushes.

DuMagUeTe =)

I had a fun fun fun time last Sept 6-7. I went to dumaguete for an official business kuno sa site. I love the place. Ganda. Nature! Mountain! Beach! Fruits as in fruitssssssss! and the lovely and friendly people of Dumaguete. Thank you. Thanks din sa company and my bosses who allowed me to go on that trip.


I won't be able to leave the office for a while since I will be busy with the forecast for 08. Besides classes just started.

my new prof!

He's funny. As in very funny! And He knows how to teach, how to make the students understand the lesson. Yun lang. Ask me again after 3 months - when the term ends.

Churc's Anniv

Last Sunday of September! I hope we could celebrate the goodness of God in the church and to our live to the fullest! Happy Anniv!

Erap guilty

Erap was guilty on plunder. I am not inclined to politics but I got to include this. So ther he was proven guilty. He will surely ask for reconsideration, lets see...

yun na muna! hi Inets. So sorry. i don't intend to send it to you ng paulit ulit ulit. Kaso naka default pala ung email address mo everytime nagpublish. Tatangalin ko na. Hahaha. See you Sunday!!!

life's LIMBO

i had this aching tummy. as in aching madly. the nurse said its hyperacidity and gave me buscopan and kremil-s
this is what i ate in order of intake
chuckie
kopiroti (for breakfast around 9am)
pork binagoongan
rice (for lunch at around 11:30am)

i went to the restroom to do number two at around 12:30
then my tummy started aching at 2pm (my time)

btw the course cards for the last trimester is out. i don't know the result yet. i'm scared actually.
waaaah :( will i be able to get this pa?

i declared that my birthday be moved temporarily this year to september 7. haha, due to lack of time to celebrate it with family on the day itself. i haven't even brought the kids to jollibee coz i still have to do my term paper when i wnet home last saturday to sunday.

but i still thank God for the new page of my life's journey. thank you thank you LORD. i hope those who will come behind me find me faithful. not perfect, just faithful. =)

birthday 2008 part 1

Haberday ME!!!

bday txters 2008!
shawy, ronflav, alvin, noyeen, ron, inets, ruby, nanay, ate la, joy, ferdy l., baby, ate yos, lene, mamacel, tin ni mark, ate mai, chie, yeyeng, tita myr, ptr.berting, mackay, aimee, ferdy d., sir boy, kap, vi, udette, evelyn, neneng, rhea, cyrus, ms.marlyn.

thank you thank you =D

2 days before my birthday

usually i am on a vacation, just having a great time with my family. er, not that i am not good at the moment but of course having extra bed time, play time and tv time with the kids are just more appealing than going to school, making your term paper, having to sleep around 4 in the morning.

i can't write much at the moment but many things had transpired since. i am happy yet there are so many other issues to deal with before i could freely say the rain is over. i don't wanna go back in that journey but i'm thankful i had.

drizzle may come once in a while and i will welcome it just because it will make me more stronger and will make me love more the things that i have right now.

my term paper makes me insane. wake me up when september starts, that's the only time to PARTY!!!

things i'm scared at

FINALS wahahaha

un lang muna for now...
others will be significant after the 31st

Start of Something NEW

August is definitely my month! Love it, love it!!!

My August 2007 is a bit different, but it still has this components I keep on having every year:

Bits of disappointments
Reality checks a many (hehe)
Dozen and dozen of "work as if there's no tomorrow"
Rain and super storms [literally and methaporically speaking =) ]
Gifts - Yey gifts!- those unexpected little things that brighten my day are the best

and of course my new set of Something New!!!
New Friends!
New Shoes hahaha, girl ako eh!
New perfume - Pleasures by Estee Lauder (syemps idol si Gwyneth Paltrow) ; btw, i don't usually use it kc tinitipid ko harhar
New Bag - freebie from Pleasures
New Cellphone (im not overspending, the phone is free! my 3 year contract with globe ended so i took another one this time 2 years lang)
New Number (i won't post it for obvious reasons)
New Pictures by Randell (haha...i still don't have pics, I will next time)

Oh, and this year is way loaded than last year. While I was busy beading and making cellphone cases last year, school's paperworks and finals keep me busy this year. Awwww, as in the load is too many. The vacation leave, I suppose, is enough to keep me sane. i dont actually know if i'll be able to get my scholarship pa next term. Well, whatever happens will happen anyway. So I guess I just have to concentrate on doing my best rather than pressure myself with the scholarship thing. But do pray for me allright? It would boost me up big time.

I hope God will grant me another rainbow same as last year. But then that will mean raindrops will come too. No cares, rainbow during birthdays are the bestest gift ever! Men can't do that for you.

So its a start of something new!
It feels all right to be here with you.
And now looking in your eyes.
I feel in my heart.
Its start of something new!

(Don't put meaning in the words they were from a lyric. i wanted to add the audio here pero I cant. Medyo technical pag add ng audio and I dont have enough time to learn about it)

So happy birthday me! 28 na ko! Happy =)

btw today is ninoy aquino day, but due to holiday economics the holiday was moved to esterday 'monday". oks lang kasi i'm on leave. i bet, you will scold me for blogging instead of reviewing. eh pano namen, mas enjoy mag-blog kesa sa magreview. okies? i love gsb rcbc, ok lang kung mahirapan ako magdala ng laptop dito. hahaha.

SuperTyphoon Egay and the Weakening Peso

Two super news hit Manila: EGAY & Peso:Dollar = 46.43

Well Egay is a natural phenomenon an inevitable event that our country had been experiencing year after year. So even though they call it 'super' i still don't see it so shocking.

Peso:Dollar =46.43, haaay how come this forex keeps on changing. Kainis. My assumptions will have to change drastically from our prior projection of 45:1 to say 47 again? Maybe it will correct itself in December when remittance from kababayan abroad comes.

Ok, this entry is not interesting. i just added it for me to write what's what with our country, and have a glimpse of it in the future.

BTW, i wonder what's the weather in BORA!

Trust amidst the rain

It has been raining quite heavy again these days. Funny how unprepared my dear Manila is still, eventhough storm after storm had passed for like centuries already. We havent learned our lessons, have we? We prayed for the rain but we have been unable to prepare ourselves for it. So sad.

While most of us have shelter to cover us up each time heavy rainfall comes, some of our poor kababayans dont have a decent place to hide their shivering body. Why in the world has this been recurring? Is there not enough treasure on earth for the millions of people occupying it? Or was it just because some 10% of the population enjoys the luxury of these treasure and had never come to mind the value of sharing it. Sad. Really sad.

Can someone fathom the depth of the sea? Can anyone count the number of stars? Will one measure the length of east to west or north to south? We couldnt even count how many strands of hair we have. But God knows it all. With our little understanding of the things around us, no one can actually grasp the Lord's plans.

and so we have to know how to TRUST. no ifs no buts. just do it with arms wide open.

proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not in your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.

In the midst of all these heavy rain, God is brewing something for all of us. We just have to acknowledge His ways and TRUST!

my main guy

we don't have pics yet but yeah he's nice! hahaha. we've been hanging out pretty late these days. great that the girls find him attractive too and doesnt mind if we stay out late. i'll bring him home this weekend, i bet they'd love him too especially the kids. we'll bring suhol just in case.

he does whatever i command him to do. great stuff huh?

i'll show you pics next time =P

and btw our anniv was august 10, 2007. 8-10-07 doesnt ring a bell, but anyway that was it, can't amend it hehe. I knew i like him the first time i saw him but i was hesitant to fall for him just yet but then i havent found else that would match me and my needs like he does so there he is. a perfect match, say around 3 years perhaps!

jeremiah 31:13

I will turn their mourning into gladness;
i will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrows.

Oh Lord can I have it now?

edit:

God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world. ---C. S. Lewis

adversity a wake up call

letting go

Galing 'to kay Victor Joel, ang mabait na bata naalala kong forwardan at nag-IM pa sabi basahin ko na daw. Eto yun. Nabasa ko na to dati pero nonetheless, its the utot that counts!!!

The cheerful little girl with bouncy golden curls was almost five. Waiting with her mother at the checkout stand, she saw them, a circle of glistening white pearls in a pink foil box.

"Oh Mommy please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, Mommy, please?"

Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl's upturned face.

"A dollar ninety-five. That's almost $2.00. If you really want them, I'll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday's only a week away and you might get another crisp dollar bill from Grandma."

As soon as Jenny got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted out 17 pennies. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. McJames if she could pick dandelions for ten cents. On her birthday, Grandma did give her another new dollar bill and at last she had enough money to buy the necklace.

Jenny loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up. She wore them everywhere, Sunday school, kindergarten, even to bed. The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had a bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.

Jenny had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready for bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story. One night as he finished the story, he asked Jenny , "Do you love me?"

"Oh yes, daddy. You know that I love you."

"Then give me your pearls."

"Oh, daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess, the white horse from my collection, the one with the pink tail. Remember, daddy ? The one you gave me. She's my very favorite."

"That's okay, Honey, daddy loves you. Good night." And he brushed her cheek with a kiss.

About a week later, after the story time, Jenny's daddy asked again, "Do you love me?"

"Daddy, you know I love you."

"Then give me your pearls."

"Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my baby doll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper."

"That's okay. Sleep well. God bless you, little one. Daddy loves you."

And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss.

A few nights later when her daddy came in, Jenny was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed Indian style.

As he came close, he noticed her chin was trembling and one silent tear rolled down her cheek.
"What is it, Jenny? What's the matter?"

Jenny didn't say anything but lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it, there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver, she finally said, "Here, daddy; this is for you."

With tears gathering in his own eyes, Jenny's daddy reached out with one hand to take the dime store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Jenny.

He had them all the time. He was just waiting for her to give up the dime-store stuff so he could give her the genuine treasure. So it is, with our Heavenly Father. He is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so that he can give us beautiful treasures. Isn't God good? Are you holding onto things that God wants You to let go of? Are you holding on to harmful or unnecessary partners, relationships, habits and activities that you have come so attached to that it seems impossible to let go? Sometimes it is so hard to see what is in the other hand but do believe this one thing.

God will never take away something without giving you something better in its place.

howler!

"why aren't we allowed to pick the flowers of a fruit bearing tree?"
for us to enjoy the fruit itself. because if we choose to pick the flowers there'd be no fruit for us to enjoy.

this morning a howler from J.K.Rowling said "HOW COULD YOU EM?"

I'm sorry. I was only looking for names then I thought of hermione and there I was, inside her wikipedia. Waaaaah, and there i saw a major spoiler of what happened to her. Waaaaaaaah.

Sometimes I want to internalize every bit of word in the book, just so I'll have more time to spend with Harry. Then, there were times i would wanna scan everything just so i would know what happened.

But i hate spoilers. I want surprises to come my way. My gifts during Christmas time aren't opened till 12midnight. I'm sorry Ms.Rowling, but I'm more sorry to myself.

This is just one of those things you won't enjoy if you rush it. haaaaaay. at least I still don't know if harry dies. If you know the story, dare not tell me the ending. I will not forgive you. =P

August 1, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INETTES!!!

sO many things to do this month I couldnt even start thinking about the next thing I have to do because Im still so much loaded with the present task I am doing.

So I will load a calendar for you to know why I am about to cry and to prove that I am not just whining:

1 2 3 4
inette's operations foa
bday
5 6 7 8 9 10 11
dummy mik's bday
variables risk management seminar
12 13 14 15 16 17 18
review financial plan seminar
19 20 21 22 23 24 25
finals finals seminar
26 27 28 29 30
ate's bday start of trimestral break

there's something wrong with my calendar.
hehe, nalalapit na ang coming of age.

got work (lots of them) to do.

awwww

ang cute ng asong 'to. kamukha ni blue, ung kawawang version. =(
kasama yan sa mga to do ko, ung buhay nga lang na puppy. nilagay ko sa isang paper dati mga 5 - 6 years ago na din siguro.

funny how i put everything i wanna do in that paper. the cities i want to visit, the things i want to accomplish. and the persons i wanna meet. haha. saan at kailan ko kaya makakaduet si gary v and martin n. haaay, dreams.

well at least blue is within reach. 99 dreams yet to accomplish =P

happy weekend!

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akalain mo un?

For the past weeks, I was really anticipating for my 100th posting. I said I'd make it a little more fancy and memorable. But during my hiatus, I found myself having no zest in writing anything for a while. Then, suddenly just suddenly, a text message came and Im back to writing again. I failed to notice I’ve finished writing the 99th.

Akalain mong ang 100th post ko eh when friends turn to lovers haaaaay. Sabi nga ni tatay, "tinamanang magaling"! San ka pa, masakit na ulo ko dyud! Sobrang dami kasi ang nangyari ngayong linggong to. Sa school, sa church, sa office, sa bahay.

Haaaay, nako buti na lang mabait si Lord sa kin. Binibigyan nya ko ng mga simpleng bagay na magpapasaya ng araw ko. Buti hindi mala-Job ang eksena ko kundi hindi ko alam kung ano ang magiging reaksyon ko.

Akalain ko ba na ganung kahirap ung exam namin sa Advanced Statistics? Bakit nga ba kasi eto pa ang nakuha kong kurso. Pwede naman Masters in Accounting, at least forte ko un. Baka Summa Cum Laude pa ko dun. Hahaha joke lang.

Akalain mo din ba, na ang makakasama ko pala sa mga oras ng kagipitan ko eh ung taong madalas kong takbuhan nung bata ako (at kahit nung medyo tumanda na ko, next time ko na yun iwewento). Sobrang nakakahiya talaga.

Akalain mo ba, na isang buwan na pala ang nakalipas at babalik na galing Canada ang boss ko. Siguro naman pagdating nya di na ko maiistress masyado no?

Akalain mo yun July na pala. Kalahating taon na mga bading! Ibig sabihin kailangang balikan ang mga sinulat nung magsisimula pa lang ang taon. Tingin ko mas dapat ako mag-effort sa ibang bagay kesa ilagay ko ang atensyon ko sa isang bagay na obvious namang pumalya na. Haha, gets nyo? Ah ewan. Akalain ko bang magkakaganun! Hehe.

Akalain mo malapit na ko mag – bente otso! Wahaha. O dapat ba waaaaah. Ewan ko…

on friends again

Ralph Waldo Emerson:
A friend is one before whom I can think aloud.

I am seeing someone. He's one of my high school friends. he's nice but I cant talk about everything with him.

Ganun ba talaga bawal pagusapan ang ex para maka-move on? Siguro nabibingi na sa kakawento ko tungkol kay Voldemort. Hahaha.

Nway, he will soon read this. And I don't know if he'll be fine with all the things I've written. hehe. nways, this is me. ayt?

when friends turn to lovers

"I am in love with my best friend." The line so often used by friends who turned themselves to lovers.

Friendship is something precious. It is a relationship between two person who find themselves inseparable with the other. You can have a lot of friends all in the same time. In fact the more friends you have the better. Real friendship is a beautiful bonding that could last all hardship life can bring.

"What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies" Aristotle

Lovers on the other hand is different in such a way that the relationship are expected to be bound in marriage. Compared to friendship, you can only have one lover. One that you will be committed to whatever life may bring. There are a lot of difficulties lovers will eventually encounter, one is distance... loooooong distance. Thus a lot of effort is necessary to make it last a lifetime.

Friends turn lovers, sweet right? Yeah, but only if it will do last a lifetime. Because if you fail being lovers, it is too difficult, sometimes impossible, to make yourselves friends again.

hahaha

Minsan nahilo ako & bumagsak sa floor sa harap ng maraming tao...

Ayun,,,
nauso ang...

drop dead gorgeous!

astig no?

ako daw yan sa KFC, hahaha di ko mapigil. sobrang kahiya-hiyang pangyayari!

facing the giants

Fly me to neverland! I wanna meet captain hook and fight!( not peter pan of course ;-) , tinkerbell moved on already, anyway that's another topic)

I wanna quit. I wanna stop. But that is not what He wants me to do. He wants me to face the giants! I thought the midweek topic is not as timely as those I've attended before. My zealousness over the passages has not been as intense. But now I know that God gives prepaid topics too. He knows what you need, even before you ask for it.

I wanna fly, I wanna run, NOT. Did I just say I hate weaklings? Weak persons are those who refuse to face their problems. That’s why I have to take courage and find strength in God who will provide me with knowledge and drive to move forward.

So there, I’ve got to start facing my giants.

Ciao and have a great weekend!

“Courage is not the absence of fear, it is the mastery of it”

Hermione

emma watson
I am hermione, i have always been. My knack in knowing things and my eagerness to capture data make me her, or so I believe or wish. Hehe. Ok, i became hermione when Harry Potter became a movie and Emma Watson played Hermione's part. (All together now: aaaaah.) We had same name, that was it.
And if youre an avid reader of harry potter you'd know who hermione ended up with. (Double Aaaaaaaaah!) Sadly though, that is where me and hermione differs now. My past life could have been like her but "me" today is a different story. Lets see what JK Rowling wrote in book 7, maybe she'll end up with a chipmunk, ahaha!
emma mariano and jedi diah

edit:
i watched harry potter and the order of phoenix last night,(july 16,2007), at IMAX theatre Mall of Asia. that was my first IMAX experience, it may take long before i could go back because tickets cost a fortune, 400 peso each, ouches (hahaha). while we do look weird with those glasses on, the thrill of meeting harry face to face is not commensurate.
the movie was great, the theatre was superb (though expensive) and the company too. i wish i could bring simon, gail, kiel and mik sa theatre. they would have love watching "a night at the museum" there!

wento ng wento

It’s been a month. Lots of tears shed. Anger exploded. Dreams shattered. Ang dami. Surely Independence day had a new meaning! Yay! Am tired to write details but Im happy I’m moving on bit by bit. A million mile begins with a single step, isn’t it? So cheers to a new me and looking forward to a brand new “em” in days, months and years to come. Come journey with me, ayt?

On the other hand, office had been quite stressful. I don’t know if I am saying this all because im PMSing or Im just really pissed off. But something happened today which might make my stay more interesting. My crush came. I now know his name and he also asked mine! Ayos! His hair is a little off, I like the semi-kalbo he used to don. Plus he will be going here every so often! Wowowee! There’s more in him that I like than his hair of course. Anyway, I don’t know him except that he got passion and I’m just glad I ‘again’ have someone who I could be mababaw na kilig with every now and then. (dear, did i say crush? crush is diff from love right!)

Oh, and I’m meeting someone (B) nga pala. I deleted my write up about him last time because his reaction about it seems to be quite alarming. So I told him I write down what I feel at the moment and everything written here might not be true in days to come. To hold readers from too much information, I restricted the blog. I don’t know how long this privacy might be, time can only tell.

Then there were dreams, I dreamed about (A) and he’s with someone, short haired, petite, I haven’t paid much attention to the looks but she definitely is not carole, else i'd recognize her instantly. In my other dream I saw (B) and he's going to see his ex. He was trying to explain something but “again” I didn’t pay attention. In both dreams, I am numb, I don’t feel hurt, I don’t feel bad. Acceptance has finally dawned on me. But dreams are dreams you know! And they say, dreams are your secret fears. So do I fear seeing them with those they love? I still have to find out.

"Kailan ka mag-aasawa?"

"Ate Ems, kailan ka mag-aasawa?" that was blurted out by one of the teens from our church. I told him I don't have a boyfriend at the moment and I will tell him when (and if) I will marry.

Being single, unmarried and turning 28, I might have probably heard that line over and over. And mind, answering them can sometimes be frustating because they seem to see me doomed in singlelandia forever. Which is not a very welcome status here in my beloved Philippines. One of the classic reactions from one of my pretty aunts was a few rub on my back, which actually meant "don't worry dear, u'll have ur romeo soon".

i think i dont have anupthaphobia. thank God! though i think everyone around me fears for me. i know all of you cares and there's nothing wrong with that but there are things in life you could enjoy even when you're single. success is not measured by the ring on ones finger, it is something that can be achieve married or unmarried.

success and the single adult

kudos

These are my way of saying thanks to the many great men and women who have touched my life. They may or may not know me yet I want them all to know that their life is much appreciated.

To my best friends, Geng and Rhea, elementary and high-school years would not be that great without you. My memories of my young years would never be that fun. Special mention to my brothers from Tropang Kap! The feeling of belongingness a young girl could wish was best given by these supportive kuyas. Couldn’t forget that one time when my family cant give me money for our field trip, The tropa and my two besties chipped in so I may be able to come. Love you guys, mwaaah.

To my church and to the many pastors who led it. Them who have inculcated the Christian faith in me, thank you. My GIRMYWAP mates with whom I shared lots of Sunday School, retreats, fellowships, prayer meetings and lots of fun times! To Minette and Udette, my two Jonathans in my broken hearted moments, I will always be indebted to you. You were the angels God used to help me recover faster than I could ever imagine. My Sunday kinder school teachers, the late ate Beth and ate Esther, who were fond of calling me celebrity names I like, Sundays could never be sooo fun. I will always be your little Snooky or Shawy. To Kuya/Tito/Teacher Oscar, the GIRMYWAP’s ever reliable teacher our mentor in every way, namaste.

To my dear family, who had taught me the values of love, patience, trust and perseverance, I love you. They are my motivation and reason for my dreams. Maraming maraming salamat, Nanay and Tatay. Words will never be enough to express my gratitude. Their trust which we’ve always valued are very important to me and my siblings. And though we may have failed them in many ways they are still there to support us and give us a hand, I think that’s understated, they not only give us a hand they give their all to help us stand. Thank you, thank you so much. Mwah mwah! To Ate Mai and Ate Leng, who have shared their lives and resources to help Nanay and Tatay raise me up. To Ate La, whom I shared lots of secrets, laughter, and emo moments and who taught me many ‘kalokohan’ (hehe), labyu!

written last august 8 2006, was not posted then because its not yet finished, its still unfinished but nonetheless published today just because...

To my officemates, my college friends and barkada, to everyone I met. Thank you. The joy, pain, laughter and tears we've shared make me a better person. This doesnt mean I appreciate you less, I just don't have enough time to enumerate all of you then. If in time kudos part 2 will ever be written, I'll make sure I wont go tired of writing the names of everyone who had made my life more meaningful =)

take me far far away

yun nga take me far far away

last night i talked to God and He answered

I don't own an IPOD. I am not keen in turning on the radio nor watching MTV. I refuse to hear anything when I wake up. I like it quiet. I like it still. I didn't know why 'till last night.

I was late for the Praise and Worship but just in time for the message, "Loneliness". So there i sat and told myself, how appropriate Lord. Only God can humor me like that.

Then Coach blank (sorry I cant remember her name) adlibs and said, young adults usually say "Lord, mamamatay ako kung wala sya. Hindi ko kaya." with matching emote pang awards. Funny how she says that in a funny way but in reality many people do say that right? Then she said, the line "U cannot live without a person" is a lie the world wants us to inculcate in our brains so as to conceal the truth that we can do live without them. Why do the world need to lie anyway? Its the way of the world dear, it is how it is. Ponder this: How did Abraham managed to live when he was called to leave everything behind him (family, possession, society)?

The truth really is this "We can live without a person but we can't live without God."

So there I sat and listened, sang and prayed. I was happy being there.

I usually take a cab on my way to boarding house. Last night, I opt to take the not so comfy path which is to walk through Greenbelt 1 to 3 to Landmark then Glorietta then SM finally FX. But the story is not about the long walk but about the quietness I had during the time I've walked and talked with God.

It was not a quiet night. Gigs are everywhere and Makati, particularly Greenbelt is busy. There was free band at Greenbelt 4, not so free band in the Tavern(they've changed name but I cant recall) whose songs are loud enough to hear by those outside, taxi honking at Makati Ave, super loud noise from men drilling the drainage (maybe preparing for the rainy days).

Amidst all the noise my heart is quiet, my soul is still. While walking I talked to God and told Him everything. My plans, my hopes, my desires, my heartaches, my all. I said, 'Oh God give me a guwapong boyfriend now na' hehe kidding. I told Him that my heart is still in pain and asked Him to somehow make me feel better. I knew God heard me but the pain didn't subside. I guess He wants me to go through it, to experience it, the wound, the scar. And though in pain, His peace remains in my heart.

God has given me peace through it all. He has reminded me that He is in control. So I walk through the noise quietly, contradicting but true. It was such a release. I have been making myself busy, trying to fill my mind with thoughts too many, entertaining all the noise that my mind can tolerate. But then it is not how God works.

Last night, He emptied my mind from troubles then he filled my heart with love.

survey

1) Single, Taken, or Crushing?
SINGLE

2) Are you happy with where you are at right now?
you choose to be happy, right?

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
No. I don’t fall actually. Love is a choice. My mistake is that I’ve chosen to fall in love too. nyek

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
oh yes

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
NO. Period.

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
Relationship depends on the commitment of two person to make the it work. Trust is not something you ask for it is something you earn. Back to the question, it actually depends on how much I love the person and how true his intentions are. Loving must be unconditional right? But there’s this hard process to take him back. In summary, it’s still between the couple to make it work, not just one.

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
Ahh yes.

8) Do you want children?
Who doesn’t? I really don’t get Jen Aniston.

9) How many?
2 or 3

10) Would you consider adoption?
would want to. just that I hope me and my husband will have extra money for that

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to let you know?
As in now? I’m not even ready. I don’t know really. When it happens it happens. ask me again next month!

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
Enjoy? I don’t enjoy the thrill. I just don’t want to plunge into a relationship so fast coz I’m scared that it will end fast too.

13) Do you want someone you can't have?
I did want someone. Pero not anymore. It doesn’t make me happy, so why continue.

14) Do you believe in love at first sight exists?
No.

15) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yes. Come on, they give zest to your relationship. Duh.

16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
No. The choice to change lies in the person itself. But in the long run, maybe you can inflict ideas, values and belief but it is still their choice if they want to accept it.

17) If you could get married anywhere, money's not an object, where would it be?
My view of getting married never change through time. I wanted it simple church “Gatbuca” wedding.

18) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
what feelings? =P

19) Have you ever wished you could have someone but you couldn't?
many times.

20) Have you ever broken a heart?
I don't know. Siguro. Sorry...

take your time, butterfly

my 5 year old swatch watch retired last friday. the hook of the bracelet snapped. the hook serves as a connection between the bracelet and the watch (so kahit bumili ng new bracelet wala ng paglalagyan). it can't be a wristwatch any longer.

the watch itself still runs smoothly. the time is still accurate, it's face is still beautiful. but it will not function the way it should be. i couldnt place it on my wrist anymore, there'd be no bracelet to bind it. no connection.

i told my sister we could turn it into a chain watch, eventhough its not meant to be a chain i think it can be transformed into something more than just a wristwatch.

parang life din. sometimes a part of you will just snap. connections will be cut off. but there's more to life than being an old you. a new you will emerge. metamorphosis will transpire.

you just cannot dwell on something that can no longer happen, that will no longer work. you have to develop the ability to adopt to certain changes that come your way. be it big or small, it really doesnt matter. God will see you through.

so take your time. relax. don't jump hastily. slow down.

"Guard your heart for it will affect everything you do." Proverbs 4:23

praying for a rainbow

if i were to rate myself my "weathering the storm" entry would get the best entry award!
it's candid, full of emotions, funny yet pretty inspiring! i wrote it july last year almost a year from now na. how fast time flies no? tanda ko na pala. =) but its ok, i've aged well i guess.

and "four" entry naman tells how honest i am about how i feel. pretty fun to answer surveys like that, especially when you know there may be certain questions that are so you.

it's nice going back to the things you've done and compare then and now. however, you must not make it pull you down but instead let those experiences make you a better person.

my july 2006 posts

mag-shift na ko ng career! i wanna be a writer!

boredom repost form jenny

Is your hair up?
>>> no

your phone right beside you?
>>> yes

wish you were somewhere else?
>>> yes

Do you have plans for tonight?
>>> solve my stat/prob assignment other than that wala na. (i don't even know if i'll be able to solve it. lutang kasi utak ko last tuesday sa class eh, waaaaah pakopya!)

Are you wearing makeup?:
>>> blush on, powder and eye liner. yes.

Are you wearing chapstick?:
>>> yes

Are you cold?:
>>> no. mainit sa pinas.

Are you tired?
>>> no. more like nervous for tom's class

Are you excited?
>>> no

Are you wearing pajamas?
>>> mainit nga

Who’s the last person that called you?
>>> yung barker sa may sakayan, sabi nya "oy, umusog-usog naman kayo dyan" wahaha

Who is your last text message from?
>>> alvin

PAST:

Anything you regret?
>>> none. didn't i say regrets do not help us, instead held us captives

Ever stuck gum under a desk?
>>> nope

Ever spit at someone?
>>> bastos yun

Ever kicked something living?
>>> ung pusa sa likod namin kasi ang kulet ayaw umalis eh may galis sinipa ko. =(

Ever had your nails done?
>>> yep. not successful though

Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?
>>> no. but i did cry so hard i couldn't breathe. tapos na yun, congrats me!

LAST WEEK:

Had any plans last week?
>>> i did. but it was totally blown up. i don't know why. can't remember. i have alzheimers already.

Who did you see most last week?
>>> oooops. what do you mean last week. may selective amnesia ako eh

Was last week interesting?
>>> a big big NO

TODAY:

Have you cussed?
>>> nope.

Have you yelled at someone?
>>> nope

Have you cried?
>>> nope. galing!

First thing you did this morning?
>>> prayed.

Last thing you ate?
>>> suha

What’s something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?
>>> school mostly

Last cd you bought?
>>>mig ayesa

Do you believe in long distance relationships?
>>> swak! boundaries are nothing between two committed and loving hearts. period.

Have you been cheated on?
>>> ano ba to jenny.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?:
>>> i think so. yung mga pamangkin ko, nanay & tatay ko... =P

Do you wish on stars?
>>> yep. sob sob

Does it work?
>>> dont know. i don't actually hold on to it. i just want to make that gesture kasi it makes me feel young.

When was the last time you cried?
>>> sat night.

Do you like your handwriting?
>>> uhmmmmm

Are you a friendly person?
>>> i guess so

Are you keeping a secret from the world?
>>> don't we all?

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
>>> my bed

What is the color of your bedsheets?
>> blue with lots of animal prints, pangbaby ba

What were you doing at 11 last night?
>>> watching daddydidodu

Last person you talked to:
>>> officemate

Ever cried on your friends shoulder?
>>> yep

Song that makes you sad?
>>> bahay kubo

Are you a normally happy person?
>>> yep

Is your self-esteem low?
>>> nope. won't allow it.

What color are your eyes?
>>> black

Long or Short Hair?
>>> long

Current Music?
>>> silence

life is beautiful... if you only see it with clear eyes

me and my new notebook! when you wish, wish big time!

pretty lara beautious noreen ang gorgeous moi


bunso of corplan and bunso ni nanay

ganda ba ng mga pics? ayos no! kasama ko ang mga super good looking friends. am i allowed to tell where? hehe. nasa background naman no? basahin nyo na lang. mwaaah mwaaah! twas a good day! life is sweet too!)

moving on!

Hypothesis Ha:
There is no way i'm gonna make myself miserable over somebody who does not value me much. Therefore I will do things better to make my days more meaningful.
Hypothesis Ho:
Pride will tell me not to give up. Therefore I will succumb to misery until i die.

Ano sa palagay nyo? Eh di sa HA na ko di ba? Ho is the hypothesis when u fail to do the right things, it is null.

Moving on is not something you will wait for. It is something you will decide upon. Life has its ups and downs. When your down you have to keep on working hard to get up.
Live your life to the fullest, yeah!
"Live" is a verb. Verb means it takes action.
"Your" means the phrase is talking to the person himself. Others cannot make you live your life to fullest, none will happen if you didnt choose to live it.
"Fullest" means to the max! to the bones! and to every drop of blood and sweat of your body! No boundaries, no walls!

With God everything will be well. I just have to trust Him more this time. I shall not make any move. He will make my path clear.

"Honey" can be sour sometimes

Pooh loves it.( Question: what is pooh's gender?)
I loved it. Take note on the tense. Loved. Meaning past. I still do but I will eventually learn to unlove it. Love is a choice, ayt? See my post for valentines dayLove is a choice: to quote i said there: it is a choice to keep a relationship; it is a choice to make it work; it is a choice to love

then in another entry i quoted joe d mango:

The reason why we refuse to let go of a person we love is because we
are afraid to be alone. But if that person doesn’t love us, then being with
him or her doesn’t make any difference. We would have someone beside us, but
still be alone. The real essence of a relationship lies in the commitment of
two people, and not just one. It lies in the basic foundation of love that is
shared by two and not just felt by one. You simply
cannot be happy with a man who loves someone else. Do not allow yourself to be
a prisoner of your own desires. Let us always remember that it is in giving
and not in taking that we experience the real meaning of love. It is in loving
and not in wanting to be loved in return that we find real happiness.
by joe d mango

ouch

the entry is fully recycled. but i dont care. if i could do it last year i will definitely make it through again this time.

but for the benefit of tracking down the events in years to come. i will write an entry of how much pain he caused me and the reason i have to let him go. i won't publish it nga lang. for the reason that i am not successful on my choice to unlove him just yet. But I will definitely.

friends say i should be angry. that it is the only way to let go finally. but my heart can't make my mind do that.

Rather i should keep in mind what Erica told me "God saved you". Oh yes dear. Thanks much. She told me i'll just suffer more if i'd try to hold on. Love will find a way back to me, right Jecai?

Lastly, here's Udette's text:

When God takes something away from our grasp he's not punishing you but merely emptying your hands for you to receive something better.

Dear God, please make this pain go away pretty fast. But if You really want me to undergo such overhaul (again) maybe I better be ready. Just send me angels to rescue me when I'm about to give up. Thank you.

sleepy head

it's school time once again and i really have to study hard...harder... for me to continue my scholarship privilege.

but this book makes it hard for me.

book and sleeping pill in one

kung may big bird may little bird din!!!

the little bird, whom i named tweety, died last week, sylvester ate her. =(

guess who got her DLSU full scholarship! Ayiy!!!

Nyem nyem will be seeing much of this sign for the coming months er years?


got to comply with this one, toink

i have many other things to be thankful for but this one is major, yahoo!

I want to give back the glory to God who gave me this wonderful opportunity to study at one of the prestigious (hehe, expensive) schools in the country. Thank you Lord!!!

long live jumong!!!

I simply love Jumong, or the actor who played it, hehe.

Here are some of the reasons
1. Foremost, syemps, is his chinky eyes!!! Ang cute di ba? Or is it just a personal preference? Hmmmm Hmmmm?
2. Jumong said "father, pls don't blind my eyes from hate". whoa, what a line! If everyone will do that, what a happy place would the world be!
3. He's close to his mom pero hindi sya spoiled! Haha, too good to be true. Kaya nga I love him noh?
4. He talks very briefly and thinks long before making a hard decision. A man should always be like that. Their girl counterpart can do much of the talking. nyehe
5. When he looks at you, he seems so sincere. i love this guy!
---How to make me fall in love with you, just learn how to do that look while Im talking and you will win me for sure. Just make sure you will not scare me.(haha, now that's the hard part)---















Then I wish I can be like SoSeoNo

In love she was once impulsive,(ehem I know someone like her),but has grown mature and learned that emotions are not always necessary to follow. There are things that we have to set aside to conquer more meaningful and more important things.
She had prioritized her responsibilities over personal matters. Although she loves Jumong she could not make her clan and children suffer.

Aaaaw, when will I be able to do that? Haaay, marriage can wait, can it? I still have lots of things to do for my family and myself. Dreams that I may not accomplish if I get married soon. Besides I am still 27 and there's 3 more years to spare. Hehe, children have to wait. Too many a times I couldnt help think what my offspring would look like. Haha, oh yeah babies have to wait. Besides, responsibility of raising a kid is not easy at all right? So why hurry?

Last, teach me not to be like Daesu nor his mother

His mother taught him to keep the dagger in his heart, that way the pain and hate he felt will remain until the day of vengeance.

How sad, many people would do anything to stay in power or to have power. May I know not to be greedy and how to forgive wholeheartedly. Amen.

add:
what it takes to be gwapo:
Be like Jumong!
ok, kidding

here's is my gwapo meter:

Physically:
1. Kung malinis ka sa katawan naliligo araw-araw at nagtutoothbrush regularly, gwapo ka. Hygiene is important. TO ang BO at BB. ( turn off ang body odor at bad breath)
2. Nice teeth. Nice eyes. I am keen to nice teeth. Ewan ko kung bakit. I like it clean and white. To die for ang cute eyes. Jumong eyes' the best. Though my first super crush has these brown expressive eyes, its as if he speaks even if he doesnt talk. Ok lng din.
3. I don't like super big Arnold Swazenneger (i dont know the spelling) muscles. It scares me. He just need to be fit, though I extremely welcome nice abs =P
4. Got to have a good rest, diet and exercise habit.
5. Snoring is prohibited. If you do snore please let me sleep first.

Emotionally:
1. Knows how to have solitude, how to laugh (it keeps us healthy) and knows how to recreate (meaning: not boring)
2. Can cry if need be and knows how to make good advise
3. Assertive. Meaning he knows what he wants and acts upon it (in a good way, that is). Weak men, turns me off.
4. Should not feel insecure if the girl eventually earns more.

Spiritually:
1. Talks and walks the faith. Must know what he believes in and keeps it.

Good Moral Character:
1. needs to be vouched by a trusted friend, by one of my family members and my pastor

if you aced them all: GWAPO ka.
kung hindi baka gwapo ka sa measurement ng iba =p
kung hindi pa rin, gumawa ka ng sarili mong measurement

ten questions for the candidates

1. Why do you deserve to win the election?
2. What skills do you possess that will make you a good leader?
3. Is there some way you can improve the government?
4. What are the first 3 bills you will pass once you win?
5. Is education important? Why have you finished yours?
6. Will you hire relatives once appointed? And will you retire those loyal to your opponent?
7. What does your wife/husband and children say about you?
8. Do you believe in God?
9. If you are still 16 years old and about to enter college, will you take up nursing?
10. How proud are you of our country? Did you ever plan to migrate?

quite inspiring, read on =)

A Letter To The Young Filipino Generation

Will it be hard for you to believe me if I tell you that we have a beautiful country that is worth dying for? Perhaps you might have heard from the older people that our government is a paradigm of extreme injustice, graft and corruption and lacking of integrity. Perhaps, you have also heard that our education system is mediocre; and, worst, in spite of mediocrity, it continues to deteriorate. Furthermore, you might have also heard that we are once the glory of academic institutions in countries such as Germany and France during our Dr. Jose Rizal’s time. Yet, now, most of our mothers and grandmothers are slaves in a foreign land, ripped of self-value—all these just so they can earn money and feed you well.

The state of our country is devastating. I will not keep you from knowing that our own countrymen have a distorted understanding and regard for leadership. I have many times wept because I feel that our countrymen no longer understand the value of a leader. With the kind of people vying for seats in our government, I have often wondered if leadership has really been understood as a call to serve and not a race to positions that satisfy whims. Probably, also, this distorted understanding of leadership gives birth to a distorted regard for a leader. For one, I have realized that terrorism is no longer a stranger to us—for we have always had it in different dimensions; simply masked by varying reasons just so rebellion can be justified. We are a people that have always rebelled. And I doubt if we do so because we are courageous; for probably it is because we have lost the patience and perseverance to respond meaningfully to a desperate circumstance. We blame and withdraw rather than contribute and support. I grieve at how emotional tantrums remain to be an involuntary response to discontent and weariness. Sometimes, we are too lazy to reflect and to contemplate that we give up on thinking. As a result we act in haste. Best of all, we are too arrogant, too preoccupied to even pray and seek divine wisdom. We contest even the infallibility of the Bible as if we know more or that we can offer a more meaningful and inspiring message.

And for all these, I apologize with deep regret and repentance that my generation, and the generations that have come before me, failed you. We could have given you a meaningful past, a hopeful present and a promising future if only we have worked with the right “lenses”.

I encourage you to work with the right lens by choosing to see not the death of our country but the new life we can give her. From this, I realize that we move in parallel with the disciples’ response when Christ resurrected. Probably the grief over Christ death was enough to paralyze the disciples’ hope for something beautiful and redeeming to still happen. All they saw was death; so, they responded in grief and fear—and lack of faith when Christ, finally, resurrected. I think that our countrymen are going through the same circumstance also. We only see the hopelessness of our country; and, thus we no longer move with spirits willing to conquer.

I beg you to no longer follow our footsteps. Wear the lens that clings to faith and let go of the stubborn refusal to believe that resurrection does come. So, you will neither move towards the most comfortable escape nor refuse movement at all. In effect, you will strive for better solutions and work hard to contribute instead of merely cursing the system, looking for and pointing at faces to blame. In effect, you do not leave the country in disillusion that you deserve a better place—for you understand that a better place is not what you see around you; but, rather what you strive to cultivate inside you. Thus, you will understand that hardship is meant to prune your character and teach you to let go
of your comfort zones, which disables you from exploring your greatest potential to conquer and lead. Move in faith; do not give up; do not surrender in understanding that you deserve to fight a good fight. Nomatter the difficulty of your circumstance, keep the hope by persevering and enduring. When the bleak circumstance of your country weakens you, remember to focus not just on Christ death; but, rather on Christ’s resurrection. It is because He did not just die for you—He resurrected for you so that you would believe and hope amidst the grief and loss. Claim this as His faithfulness to you. He gave you this country; this is your territory, so be steadfast vanguards of it.

Second, as you remember the story of Christ’s resurrection, recall all those who do not believe the testimonies of those who have seen Him. This same thing may happen to you, also. My generation, and the generations that have come before me, carry stories of those who have dared to effect meaningful changes in our country. It pains me to tell you that these stories began with beautiful dreams for our country; and yet ended in frustration. Why? When a population did not support their cause, these people began doubting not just their ability to succeed but also the meaning of their cause. This is very much unlikely to the disciples who have kept their stand in spite of opposition. I grieve to admit that most of us failed to keep our stands when our foundations are shaken.

I beg you to no longer follow our footsteps. Wear the lens that will humble you to fervently and sincerely pray for God’s purpose for your existence. So, when God finally reveals Himself and His plans for you—you will hold on to it dearly even if the swift tide of discouragement and unpopularity struggle to take it away from you. Then, bravely, you will go into the world; speak, live out and die for the greatest cause He has given you. You will go out into the world and reach out to as many countrymen as you could by inspiring the younger ones and encouraging the older ones. You will strive hard to live a good life not for your own good but for the next generations’—because you understand that this country is in need of heroes to emulate. Soon enough, the burden for excellence and meaning will not just be an output; but your way of life..

Third, as you remember the resurrection of Christ, realize that even after He went up to heaven, He has not forsaken His disciples. As His disciple carried out their tasks, Christ went with them by working with them and fulfilling His promises to them. What makes it easy to discontinue our battles in life is not the realization that we are weak; but, the realization that we are fighting alone. So, we shudder and cringe, bearing the dark just because we are too scared to stand in the light, only to realize that we are standing alone.

They say that if you want to see the future of a country, you should listen to the heart of its youth; for the song that echoes in there shall be the law that will soon rule the land. To my dear young Filipinos, each of you is destined to win. Dare to not give up: keep the faith, live your mission. Claim victory and raise this country to a new life that it deserves.

It is my fervent prayer that your generation would no longer carry our regrets and failures. Death prevails when one stubbornly refuses to hope and witness resurrection. Do not just curse the darkness; dare to light a fire.



Anna Casiding